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Bug Dream

2008-12-21T20:24:57Z

I had this really long and crazy dream last night about how our school had this gigantic exhibit of bugs. It was in one of those dark type hallways lit in the Matrix--all green-looking and sci-fi-like. The students at my school--in this dream--had designed a perfect system for feeding all the bugs using a mixture of different dirt and nutritious things that all the bugs could thrive on and they also designed cages and tanks for them to live in.

It was a long dream. Very creepy. I just thought I'd share that with you.

Dumb and Dumber

2008-10-13T23:31:45Z

I feel like I'm getting dumber. I mean I feel like I don't have the same hunger to learn as I used to. Not only that, but I can't absorb information as easily as I could before. I'm not sure if it's because of lack of sleep, the food that I eat, or just that I'm getting older, but I really don't like it. I feel incompetent when compared against my peers and I can't communicate as well I as used to. Maybe this is just something I have to deal with.

Columbus day weekend! We had 4.5 days off of school. I spent a lot of time with my mom, which was more therapeutic than anything. Mostly, I yelled a lot about how unfair she is, which is new for me (the yelling at my mom thing). Today, I went shopping with my roommate, we got some nice lotions and other aromatherapy-type stuff.

I had two dreams that I remembered two. In one of my dreams I was going bald. My head felt smooth and nice :D. In my other dream, someone was trying to kill me for some unknown reason. I was under the porch dodging his bullets. It was a pretty intense dream.

OH, and on my way back to school, we saw this really hollowed-out lady--maybe in her 40s--she had PJ pants on and a sweatshirt. The odd thing about it was that she just walked out right into a pretty busy street with lots of traffic. I figured she was either super depressed and suicidal or she was sleep-walking. She looked like one of those half-dead people you'd see in movies like The Invasion or The Happening.

Reita + Me in Complete Harmony by ~blue-usagi on deviant ART
This one is a more cutesy one I did for someone on Roli.

Mixastre Lineart by ~blue-usagi on deviant ART
Lineart for PixelCake on Roli.

Repete, s'il te plait by ~blue-usagi on deviant ART
Commission for 2 plus 2 is Bunnies on Gaia. A bit rushed...but overall, I like it.

The Harpist by ~blue-usagi on deviant ART
This is my favorite one that I did...It's for xxfruitsbasketxx on Roli.

Just Juice by ~blue-usagi on deviant ART
This one took FOREVER. It ended up being a 128 MB

How do I write a College Essay?

2008-09-13T02:19:32Z

I think nearly everyone must have this insufferable pain of thinking that his or her own life is boring and dreadful. Well, I'm not here to tell you that mine isn't, but the thing is, is that I think we're all lying to society in order not to sound arrogant. Right now, I'm in dire need of something to write for my college essays aka "personal essays" and I keep telling myself that I have no interesting experiences to recount or anything particularly cool that I have to share. While I think it's mostly true, there are some things I can write about that, while unrelated to my general day-to-day life, are still personal and give some insight to my personality. For example: this blog. This blog is a conglomeration of thoughts and tidbits from my brain, splattered into words and posted for the world to see. Everything I write here is fair game to be read by the general public and really lets people get to know me. Meanwhile, everything is also good for transforming into an eloquently-written essay. But now, you see, the problem is if I can create said eloquence. Which is the problem I present to you. How do I write better? Are there any strategies or example essays you can give to me?

Well, I thought not. No one really reads this anyway, and those who do, never comment.

It gets lamer, trust me

2008-09-05T04:24:50Z

So my wing is starting up this message bucket thing. It's kind of like the snap cup from Legally Blond. I'm actually a little excited about it, I mean, I really like corny cute things like this.

I'm starting to get a little more exposed to Japanese music. I've been listening to Acidman and 9mm Parabellum Bullet now. If anyone has any other suggestions, please comment!

Nothing more to say ^_^;

Sick and Tired

2008-09-04T01:41:51Z

Admittedly, getting sick makes me ten times crankier, but I'm just too damn tired to express that anger and frustration. I'd guess that about a quarter of campus is sick. I've been sick since saturday, and right now I'm at that point where I've almost completely lost my voice. It feels as if I've been shouting all day, when I haven't, and now I sound like a man =_=.

So my roommate and I have rearranged our room just slightly. We've rearranged our desks to face one another. Even though it isn't a big change, it feels much better...except that my back is facing the A/C and I get cold air blowing at me which really isn't helping my sick situation.

I find myself these days wondering about how I came to be like this. I feel depressed, lonely, inadequate, and I've been feeling like this for the past two years maybe longer. Sometimes, I can't remember what I was like before high school. Even though it feels like I had a much higher self-esteem, I remember myself still unhappy. Perhaps I'm just a natural-born pessimist. I hate it, but it's hard to change those kinds of views, you know?

So I uploaded my first youtube video last week:

Reviving Livejournal

2008-06-09T01:57:22Z

I think it's about time I revived this old thing, maybe get a few friends.

Summer has begun! So as I do annually, I made a list of things I want to do over the summer:

-learn Russian (I'm doubling up in languages with Russian and French next year, so I thought I'd get a head start)
-make a manga
-learn animation/make an animation
-learn to sew
-improve my Chinese (mandarin to be exact)
-read everyday
-work out (I haven't had any real strenuous physical activity in a few months)

The sad thing is is that I only do about two or three in that list anyway. But it nice just to get things in order.

My (former) Computer Science teacher has a livejournal (I won't divulge his username) and it was completely public, so a bunch of my friends and I read the entire thing and found that he's homosexual, extremely depressed with a low image of himself, and very friendly with underage boys. How interesting.

Mangabullet.com, it's like deviantART except only anime/manga genre. It also has a more sophisticated journal and a personal Oekaki board for each user. My username is limerix :)

I got a Youtube account finally!

SUMMER!

Procrastination Stage 1: Aging and realization

2007-10-21T22:30:51Z

I'm procrastinating on writing my 10-page paper due tomorrow. So far only 4.5 pages *sigh* woohoo all-nighter!! /sarcasm

So while on the web, I come across a livejournal group for my school. It's kind of hard to believe the mentality of the students a decade ago and how different it is today. It's not a sad feeling so much as a sinking feeling about what I'll be doing in the next ten years. And, yeah, I know it's kind of weird to be looking at an alum's (who's 10+ years older than me) journal, but it was interesting to see what their lives--similar to mine--were like and how they turned out. And that sinking feeling is from knowing that my freedom from societal responsibilities will end in a few years and I'll start leading the type of life they're leading now. It's sad to think that even after all my dreaming of becoming someone renown will completely dissipate and that all that will matter is paying the bills.

Claymore

2007-10-15T14:00:09Z

I was watching the Claymore anime this weekend when my computer decided it wanted to stop working...I got to episode 9 or so before my computer started making funny noises.

I was driving to school yesterday, and I passed by an office building with "Claymore" written on it. I thought to myself "OMG, what if this is 'The Organization' for Claymores?????" Well, it turns out it's not...I looked it up through my trusty google account and found that it was Claymore Securities, a financial services company.

Blogging

2007-10-08T21:19:43Z

I've noticed that with all the blogs I've started (about 10 total), I start with the subject of blogging. Yes, it's an old, hackneyed, and boring topic, but no sense in breaking the tradition now.

With blogging and in the internet in general, it's very seldom that I use my actual name, birthday, and life's accomplishments. It's fun to formulate an identity for yourself where you can be anyone you want to be without a very big chance of consequence. I mean, it's not as if I go to the extreme in making up an entirely different set of characteristic or lifestyle--no--, I just stay away from revealing specifics about my school, my intelligence, or anything related to my location. Despite my not-so-clear identity online, it speaks more truth than how I come off in the real world. I guess it's easier to express oneself online. No one will judge you openly and no one will be able to meet you to shove embarrassment into your face. So in general, I'm more honest to myself than I am in real life, even if I say I like such and such music when I really don't, my personality is more "me."

Anyway, the nice feature about LiveJournal is that you can pick who can read what entries and who can't. This might come in handy....

Customization...maaaaan!

2007-10-08T00:36:14Z

Back in the days when I ~~had~~ updated my xanga (I didn't shut down my xanga account...), I got pretty into the layout aspect of it. I even self-taught HTML and made layouts for xanga users out of the goodness of my heart. So coming to LJ, I've immediately whored over the hundreds of layouts @_@ *drool*.

Also, I got an avatar of appropriate cute-ness. If anyone's asking, the picture is, indeed, by JohnSu of deviantart. Though this is going against copyright laws, not to mention boundaries in art-stealing, tons of other people do this, so I'm going to use this avatar until I can find something else. Besides, I'm actually creditting JohnSu, and if you don't know who JohnSu is, shame on you! Goto his deviantArt page, NOW!

hrm.

2007-10-07T06:58:42Z

Well...people have told me of the magnificent benefits of LiveJournal, so I've decided to join. Yay!